Decision.

I've never been acting like this before. So many words. So many thinking in my mind. At certain times, I feel like my head is exploding.

Why do I even want to make myself suffer like this? Listening to all the advices from friends. It wasn't the same at the beginning. Now, they all make the same conclusion.

But, I still can't make any decision. I feel lonely. Even there are so many people around me, without you, I still feel lonely.

I feel like, my heart has been torn into pieces and I'm trying to get every pieces back together. and we all know it is impossible. But I just couldn't give up.

I just wanna know, what are you thinking. You told me you love me, you are sorry for what you did. You know that you hurt me, but, you never do anything to stop it.

Day by day, the gap is going wider and wider. I really feel that, and I know you feel it too.Why can't you do something about it?

Maybe, it was all because of me. I was the only one struggling in this relationship. Couldn't let you go. You even told me, you do not want to hurt me anymore and ask me let go of you. I still keep holding on.

Now, it's only the matter of time. Will I still be there trying to get back every pieces of my heart, for how long? Will I still be your SECOND priority? I feel so insulted.You're probably sick of these.

Somehow, I wish it is your decision, and not mine.