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Last Promise For Each Other.
Have a really good life ahead knowing that the other person will be happy for you.
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I've just realized, all my previous posts were about my jobs, relationships, money and time.
That's my life? Like for real?
What happened to the Noel I once knew.
The Noel that doesn't care about anything but himself? Like NOELLLL?
Hmm. Not that I'm complaining bout life, but it isn't as interesting as before I guess.
Is the world gonna end?
With the tsunamis, earthquakes happening, is the world really gonna end soon? Really on 2012?
:|
Pretty scary don't you think. I don't read newspapers but I knew how terrible it is.
I.Am.Terrified.
I feel like there is still a lot of things I have to do.
1) Kill someone
2) Live with you forever
3) A LOT MOARRR
So Dear God, please don't make the world end so soon okay. It's true that I wanna go to heaven to find you (maybe I can't) and let you make me an angel so I can flaiiii! But, I wanna stay in this world longer :)
Promise me you will bring all the people that I love to heaven as well right. :* I pray for the japanese who died because of the tsunami and earthquake as well so they could all go to heaven. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!
My New Room - Green Monsta!
After moving to my new house for quite some time. Finally, my room actually looks like a room now.
And yes, its freaking small and I have to share it with my idiot brother : C
My First Valentine's Day
I could not believe that I actually have someone to celebrate my Valentine's Day with. For 19 years I've been surviving without actually celebrating Valentine's Day, so you all know how amazing this is for me right? : D
Unfortunately, I have been very busy with work, so on Valentine's Day, I was again, working.
But an angel came look for me after I finished work(around 10pm)to celebrate Valentine's Day with mehhhh!
Yeah, i-Phone is what I've got : D
Of course, I happy gila babi!!
But you managed to give me all I wanted : D
And most importantly you, because, YOU ARE my everything.
Okay okay, this is what happened. HAHAHHAHAHHA.
1) Reached home, took out the present
2) Opened it
aww red roses and chocolates
(I said I wanted flowers since no one ever give me flowers)
3) Opened another box wrapped with wrapping papers, thinking it's gonna be perfume.
ITS A FREAKING I-PHONEEEEEEEE!
this is EXACTLY how i looked like that night.
Then the next day, we went shopping and have our wonderful Valentine's Day although its on the exact day but we definitely had fun :)
I love you <3
ONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEARONEYEAR
Can't wait for us to be ONE YEAR! I don't care how much I'm gonna suffer or get myself killed
I want us to be together for ONE YEAR!
Decision.
I've never been acting like this before. So many words. So many thinking in my mind. At certain times, I feel like my head is exploding.
Why do I even want to make myself suffer like this? Listening to all the advices from friends. It wasn't the same at the beginning. Now, they all make the same conclusion.
But, I still can't make any decision. I feel lonely. Even there are so many people around me, without you, I still feel lonely.
I feel like, my heart has been torn into pieces and I'm trying to get every pieces back together. and we all know it is impossible. But I just couldn't give up.
I just wanna know, what are you thinking. You told me you love me, you are sorry for what you did. You know that you hurt me, but, you never do anything to stop it.
Day by day, the gap is going wider and wider. I really feel that, and I know you feel it too.Why can't you do something about it?
Maybe, it was all because of me. I was the only one struggling in this relationship. Couldn't let you go. You even told me, you do not want to hurt me anymore and ask me let go of you. I still keep holding on.
Now, it's only the matter of time. Will I still be there trying to get back every pieces of my heart, for how long? Will I still be your SECOND priority? I feel so insulted.You're probably sick of these.
Somehow, I wish it is your decision, and not mine.
Why do I even want to make myself suffer like this? Listening to all the advices from friends. It wasn't the same at the beginning. Now, they all make the same conclusion.
But, I still can't make any decision. I feel lonely. Even there are so many people around me, without you, I still feel lonely.
I feel like, my heart has been torn into pieces and I'm trying to get every pieces back together. and we all know it is impossible. But I just couldn't give up.
I just wanna know, what are you thinking. You told me you love me, you are sorry for what you did. You know that you hurt me, but, you never do anything to stop it.
Day by day, the gap is going wider and wider. I really feel that, and I know you feel it too.Why can't you do something about it?
Maybe, it was all because of me. I was the only one struggling in this relationship. Couldn't let you go. You even told me, you do not want to hurt me anymore and ask me let go of you. I still keep holding on.
Now, it's only the matter of time. Will I still be there trying to get back every pieces of my heart, for how long? Will I still be your SECOND priority? I feel so insulted.You're probably sick of these.
Somehow, I wish it is your decision, and not mine.
4.08am
I couldn't sleep.
I did not eat much.
I'm sick.
I'm tired of crying.
I don't wanna be in love anymore.
If your heart is wounded. It's troublesome. You would need love.
I've been giving out chances. So many times that I lost count. Do I deserve this?
Someone told me, I could find others that are better. All I have to do is let go.
Someone told me, if I don't love you anymore, I should let you go or else I will keep hurting you.
Thing is, I never said I don't. At least, not yet.
I think I've pushed myself onto the wall. There are no more space for me. I am. Sad.
Every time, I gave you a chance, you blew it off. The chances, they meant nothing to you.
Chance. I never give it out easily. Yet, it came back and stabbed my heart. So many times.
Because of you.
They said, if your flesh is wounded. You treat it easily with medicines or ointments.
But, if your heart is wounded. It's troublesome. You would need love.
Right now, I don't have it. And my heart is bleeding.
Can somebody help me? It hurts. No more tears are coming out. I don't know why.
Is this.. going to be what I was sooo afraid that it would be?
Will this be.. the end?
Someone told me, I could find others that are better. All I have to do is let go.
Someone told me, if I don't love you anymore, I should let you go or else I will keep hurting you.
Thing is, I never said I don't. At least, not yet.
I think I've pushed myself onto the wall. There are no more space for me. I am. Sad.
Every time, I gave you a chance, you blew it off. The chances, they meant nothing to you.
Chance. I never give it out easily. Yet, it came back and stabbed my heart. So many times.
Because of you.
They said, if your flesh is wounded. You treat it easily with medicines or ointments.
But, if your heart is wounded. It's troublesome. You would need love.
Right now, I don't have it. And my heart is bleeding.
Can somebody help me? It hurts. No more tears are coming out. I don't know why.
Is this.. going to be what I was sooo afraid that it would be?
Will this be.. the end?
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